When you wish upon a star

The moon was big, round and full tonight. As i drove by in my car, annoyed with all the jams, the thought of assignment deadlines, the uncertainties of my future...... i saw that moon. And i didn't wish on it like how i used to when i was younger. I thought of me a few years ago, making wishes on everything that i could. A pretty, full moon. A star that shone brighter than others. An eyelash that had gotten on my finger. Candles dancing in the dark. Anything. I'd see it, think it lovely and somehow find some 'magic' in that loveliness to grant my wish. I wouldn't call it just making a wish la. It was more like....making an appeal to the Creator to grant my heart's desire. Something like it. Like how a starlit night seems to speak more favour for me. =) It was a silly thought i guess.

I wonder why i don't do it anymore because, honestly, wishing on a thing that has touched your heart (in even the smallest way possible) does work. Trust me, i've had really crazy wishes work out for me that go beyond what i thought could happen. Probably cos i never thought the wish would come true in the first place. Who would??

Anyway, i think reality and "maturity" has killed this silly belief and romanticism i used to have. Making wishes and all....like tossing one cent coins into a fountain. I wonder where that went.


Well, no time to ponder. I'm trying to write a news release (assiiiignnmeeeent....what else) but i can seem to put the words together so i tot i'd blog to get the writing juices flowing. I dont know if it worked. I just feel more sleepy.

Anyhow, I wish I'd get this assignment done SOON and it will be a fabulous one at that.

Ta.

Potong sendiri....

My fringe had been getting rather long so i was quite anxious to get it trimmed. Problem is, its weird to go to a salon and just ask the hairdresser to trim JUST my fringe. So i brought the problem up with my college mates and Steph said she just cuts it herself.

Yeah, so....initially i was sceptical about cutting my own hair, but it was really bothering me so like an hour ago, i tot "What the heck!", grabbed a pair of scissors and went snip snip snip.

The first snip makes u think "OMG, what have i done?"

Then you realize that u cant turn back after that one snip.

The second snip makes u SERIOUSLY second guess your decision.

And when everything was done, i now look like this:

Sengeted bangs when i actually wanted a fringe

I look ok from the front...somewhat.

Aih....anyways, my bangs arent that bad. If i push it to the side it becomes a fringe so no too bad i guess. My previous fringe was better tho....cos it was done by a certified and licensed hair dresser.........*mumble mumble*.....

Ah well. Spontan!

I’m a Sherlock Holmes in the Making

I want them friggin' tickets!!!


Pls gimme. Pls. Pls pls.

Twilight

Ah, Twilight. The story of a vampire and a mortal that has so enraptured the hearts of girls worldwide.



Edward Cullen, the main heartthrob who has girls praying every night that they will get a catch like him (HAH!!!) is a vampire. An immortal or great power, speed, strength, talent. Has a cold indifference and cares for nothing except Bella (his mortal, human and normal girlfriend). He also has a huge craving for her blood and fights constantly with his instinct to suck her dry of life.

How this story appeals to girls can easily be analysed.
Guys, pay attention to what Twilight girls are looking for.

He is (apparently) a creature of great beauty.
All girls want a hot guy. (though, i dont think Robert Pattinson is hot. He has rather Frankenstein-ish features to me....*and girls around the world scream and howl with devastating rage*) References to how perfectly muscular and gorgeous his body is can be found throughout the series. So yeah. Leng zai-ness, check.

He is immortal. Has superhuman abilities. But has a mortal girlfriend for whom he is willing to put aside anything and everything.
Girls want a guy who is crazy about them. Having a hugely talented one (plus immortal being) is a whole new level of high. Basically they see Edward as someone of such supernatural perfection being in their league. That means mere mortals, ordinary girls being able to achieve the guy of their dreams, Mr Perfect. Fantasy...ooi vay.

He is cold about everything but Bella.
Girls fantasize constantly about having a guy who will be cool and so mysterious etc etc... but on the interior is a dude who is DEAD in love with the girl and SHE is the 'one and only' who will be able to reach inside that cold exterior and make him warm and loving and blahdy blah blah. Basically, girls just want to feel like they are the 'special one' who sees the true self and can bring out the best in that guy.

His blood lust for Bella.
Stories about vampires have always portrayed them as hugely charming creatures with great sex appeal. I am pretty sure that the blood lust is a way of saying that Edward secretly wants Bella really bad.
So yes, girls actually want a guy who (in the bloodlust sense) find them sexy and secretly has a lust for them. Thats how i interpret it lo! I mean, look at most vampire movies, you will find that when the vampire draws blood, the victim (usually female) is actually in very sexual-like ecstacy. So i actually think the bloodlust is in reference to sex and bodily attractiveness. But Edward always treats Bella with the utmost respect and constantly fights his hunger pangs so....i think u guys can understand what that means. Girls want guys who want them (yes in 'that' sense) but has the courtesy and self control to be a gentleman about it.

And thats how Twilight appeals to girls.

Not all girls i guess. I'm actually not a Twilight fan. Lol. I read the first two books and honestly i dont like it. Stephenie Meyers way of writing just doesnt appeal to me i guess....i find the pace too slow, too.......i dont know.
I think Bella is whiney and kinda dumb based on all the decisions she makes.
Edward is a prick because i think he has no consideration for Bella. Really one.

And anyway, their whole relationship is so far fetched. In real life, their relationship will NEVER work. So in a way, i think this book sets wrong standards for girls about how relationships should be like.

The only cool thing i like was the part about the Volturi. That part was awesome but that was it. Just that part. Lol. I would have liked it more if there was more elaboration on the fighting bits and less elaboration and dragging on Bella and Edwards frolicking together. Lol. The fight parts are like over so fast when it could be so awesome, c'mon VAMPIRE FIGHTS wei. Not shiok lo the writer makes it end so quick. Lol.

Like the first book where this hunter vampire who is supposed to be super dangerous and whatnot actually got taken down in a snap. Potong stim betul. Anti climax. Say until so geng but turned out lidat. Cheh.

Anyway, i went on facebook and saw these two updates side by side:



Hahahaha...well. Twilight aint for everyone i guess. Too unrealistic for me. Well, whatever your opinion is, love it or hate it, thats your thoughts aye? =)

The legendary dare

Hahahahahahaha..... Kzhen is an awesome friend.

He said NIPPLES on his facebook status cos i dared him to.



But sadly after u dare someone, u have to complete THEIR dare so lol.
Here was my dare: I had to put kukujiao on my fb status. Oh well. Apparently it is now legendary. Lol.

Well, if u go to my profile its not there anymore. Yeah, i removed the kukujiao. So what. But the picture's all up for the world to seee.

Lol.

Anyway, if u've realised, there's something very wrong with me today. Wee.

I cant believe i dared KZ to put up nipples.
I cant believe i completed the dare to put up kukujiao.

Oh well. Haha.

Yeah. Today was that screwed up.

Rantings-ku

1.40am and what am i doing?

Sitting here. Blogging.

Thinking about things that don't really matter.

Sigh. You know, relationships suck. YES, I said it. But i dont mean BGR. I mean relationships in general. Like friendship, family, best friends. Its all...........messy. And people let you down. CONSTANTLY.

I mean, i'm not a social butterfly. I dont make a lot of effort in my friendships except for a select few people whom i consider profitable important in my life. ;p I generally take time to spend with them cos, well, they mean something to me. But sometimes, they dont reciprocate my feelings and that really bums me out you know?

Its like BGR, but maybe worse. Cos if say a guy i have a crush on rejects me (who would be THAT stupid??) XD, then game over. But for a normal friendship, you can't say "I dont wanna friennd you anymore..."??? What are we in? Kindergarden??

Still, sigh. Sometimes i really feel like that you know? With a guy, i get rejected like once. With a friend, you can keep getting rejected over and over again. And sometimes, the way i get turned down seriously makes me feel like that person has absolutely no consideration for how i would feel. Time and time again.

Yeah, im sensitive. I WOULD understand if there was a good reason, but its the WAY they say it. Or more like they dont bother telling you unntil the last minute when you bring it up. Probably cos it meant nothing to them. They make it like this "Oh, by the waaayy..." kind of thing. And im talking about really really close friends. Not 'hi-bye' friends.

BUMS. Im bitching aren't I?

Sighhhh. Maybe an "I- dont- friend- you" has its point afterall.

Im probably ranting cos im insanely tired.


I need sleep. Kbai.

Angst

Peace trembles in my core. Threatening to fall apart.

Frustration scratches its dirty, yellow nails against the walls of my mind.

Desperation stares at me with eyes of anguish.

And I am surprised that I have not fallen apart.


A home where I am not at home.

A pillar of faith built over the years, with no integrity.

A head full of knowledge, lacking wisdom.

A heart that is capable of loving and despising with the same passionate beat.

To not fear God. But to FEAR God, as in to be afraid.

Two faced hypocrisy. And vanity.

I feel, that this is all I am made out of.


The irony that after bottling and storing so much

In this tiny self that feels like it is about to burst from being overloaded

I can still feel so empty. So hollow.
So lonely.

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I hate this piece.
Stinks.
Need sleep.
Bai.